Today is a blur...  I hoped to be able to look for land in Texas this week and next.  Too much going on in SC to accomplish that.  Cancer sucks...

Sometimes I don't understand things, sometimes I don't understand anything at all...  I can say with certainty that the harder I try, the farther away the dream becomes.  I have tried hard to avoid repeating past mistakes, yet it seems new mistakes are always waiting for me to make them.

I have a plan, a great plan.  Perhaps it's not such a good plan as my family does not think it's as good a plan as what I think it is.  Maybe in a year, if plans work out this post will be meaningless.  Perhaps in a year my skin cancer will have consumed me.  I'd rather spend all my remaining days in Texas.  If that means 30 days or 30 thousand days I'd rather be in Texas...  What time is it?  Time to be on the move.  Time is of the essence!  The lawyers have it right.  Time!  Yes, it is finite.  It is not a commodity to waste.  Time is quite limited.  Time is short, regardless of how young you think you are, time is short.  In the grand scheme of things our lives are but a flash, a flicker in the big picture.  I'd like to finish learning German, I'd like to finish learning Spanish.   Heck, I'd like to revisit some of my high school math.  Will I have time?  Only God knows for sure.  Time has become a quantity I cannot waste.

Thanks for reading, thanks for understanding (or not).  My ramblings may only help me to heal, if they help someone else, then glory be to God for the benefit to others...